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and i wonder if you still love me unconditionally; [Sunday
December 20 2020
@ 12:27 am
]
[ mood | devious ]



It's not that I don't love you complete strangers enough to let you read it, it's just I'd like to make sure you aren't, oh say my brother or my mother or something.
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[Monday
May 12 2008
@ 8:42 pm
]
hey there delilah whats it like in new york city youre a thousand miles away but tonight you look so pretty yes you do times square cant shine as bright as you i swear it’s true hey there delilah dont you worry about the distance im right there if you get lonely give this song another listen close your eyes listen to my voice its my disguise im by your side oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me what you do to me hey there delilah i know times are getting hard but just believe me some day ill pay the bills with this guitar we'll have it good we'll have the life we knew we would my word is good hey there delilah ive got so much left to say if every simple song i wrote to you would take your breath away id write it all even more in love with me youd fall wed have it all oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me a thousand miles seems pretty far but theyve got planes and trains and cars id walk to you if i had no other way our friends would all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know that of them have felt this way delilah i can promise you that by the time that we get through the world will never ever be the same and youre to blame hey there delilah you be good and dont you miss me two more years and youll be done with school and ill be making history like i do youll know its all because of you we can do whatever we want to hey there delilah heres to you this ones for you oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me oh its what you do to me what you do to me oh










here i am. thinking that you could make everything okay. if i would just let you.

[Tuesday
April 29 2008
@ 7:51 pm
]

im standing beyond the edge of reason
waiting for someone to tell me
that im wrong
theyll swear im wrong
that youre definitely not right


and then there you were
but i couldnt wouldnt shouldnt
everyone has a reason why i shouldnt
everyone but me.
but still, i didnt
and now im stuck
choking on regret
because after all
its you i need

please. dont give up on me.

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz [Monday
April 28 2008
@ 9:36 pm
]

t h e l e t t e r A

Are you available? not emotionally. =[

What is your age? twentyone.

What annoys you? everything.

t h e l e t t e r B

Do you live in a big house? uhm. its normal.

When is your birthday? march thirtieth.

Who is your best friend? shruggg. i have a few.

t h e l e t t e r C

What's your favorite candy? reeses.

Who's your crush? david beckham.

When was the last time you cried? yesterday.

t h e l e t t e r D

Do you daydream?: all the time

What's your favorite kind of dog? shrug

What day of the week is it? mondayy

t h e l e t t e r E

How do you like your eggs? cooked.

Have you ever been in the emergency room? a few times

What's the easiest thing ever to do? sleep

t h e l e t t e r F

Have you ever flown​ in a plane​?​ many many times

Do you use fly swatt​ers?​:​ no. i dont really have a fly problem.

Have you ever used a fogho​rn?​: no

t h e l e t t e r G

Do you chew gum?​:​ sometimes.

Are you a giver​ or a taker​?​:​ mostly a giver

Do you like gummy​ candi​es?​:​ sour gummy worms<3

t h e l e t t e r H

How are you?​: im good. i have a headache.

What'​s your heigh​t?​:​ somewhere around 5 foot 4

What color​ is your hair?​ brown red blonde

t h e l e t t e r I

What'​s your favor​ite ice cream​? shruggg. daquiri ice. i dont really like ice cream.

Have you ever ice skate​d?​: yess

t h e l e t t e r J

What'​s your favor​ite jelly​ bean?​:​ grapefruit.

Have you ever heard​ a reall​y hilar​ious joke?​: yeahh

Do you wear jewel​ry?​:​ yeahhh

t h e l e t t e r K

Who do you want to kill?​: um no one

Do you want kids?​:​ yes

Where​ did you have kinde​rgart​en?​:​ simi elementary

t h e l e t t e r L

Are you laid back?​:​ usually

Do you lie?​:​ not usually. it makes me feel guilty.

t h e l e t t e r M

What'​s your favor​ite movie​?​: the crow. wild hearts cant be broken.

Do you still​ watch​ disne​y movie​s?​: sometimes

Do you like mango​s?​: i like bananas i think that mangos are sweet i like papayas papayas but nothing can beat the sweet love of God!

t h e l e t t e r N

Do you have a nickn​ame?​: i have a few.

Whats​ your favor​ite numbe​r?​: 19

Do you prefe​r night​ over day?​: depends.

t h e l e t t e r O

What’​s your one wish?​: blah.

Are you an only child​?​: i have a brudder.

Do you wish this was over?​: yeahh i guess.

t h e l e t t e r P

What one fear are you most paran​oid about​?​: dying

 

t h e l e t t e r Q

Are you quick​ to judge​ peopl​e?​: yeah =[ i suck

t h e l e t t e r R

Do you think​ you'​re alway​s right​? i pretty much am yes.

Do you watch​ reali​ty tv?: sometimes

What’​s a good reaso​n to cry?​: blaaaaaaaahh

t h e l e t t e r S

Do you prefe​r sun or rain?​:​ sun!

Do you like snow?​: sometimes

What'​s your favor​ite seaso​n?​: summer

t h e l e t t e r T

What time is it?: 0932

What time did you wake up?​:​ 0600

When was the last time you slept​ in a tent?​: bah camping last summer

t h e l e t t e r U

What is your favor​ite kind of underwear? i have these sexy pink and blue frilly ones

Can you ride a unicy​cle?​ uhm probably not

t h e l e t t e r V

What’​s the worst​ veggi​e?​ grossssss avocado and spinach and artichokes andddd most of them

Where​ do you want to go on vacat​ion?​:​ vegas & cali soooon! but ireland.

Where​ was your last famil​y vacat​ion to? blah we go to lincoln city a lot. but real vacation was either to california or illinois.

t h e l e t t e r W

What'​s your worst​ habit​?​:​ crying

Where​ do you live?​: hillsboro

t h e l e t t e r X

Have you ever had an x-​ray?​ yess

Have you seen the x-​games​?​:​ yea

Do you own a xylop​hone?​: not exactly​

t h e l e t t e r Y

Do you like the color​ yello​w?​:​ yes

What year were you born in?: 1987

t h e l e t t e r Z

Do you belie​ve in the zodia​c? not really

What'​s your favor​ite zoo anima​l?​: flaaaaamingos

[Monday
February 25 2008
@ 9:03 pm
]
 today was a really good day.
because i am a frikkin jeeeeeerk.
but im okay with that haha.



uhm. like. what.
i ran my booty off.
now i want to dance my booty off.



i hella cant wait for my birthday.
mandy+darlene+candace+(hopefully) nikki
SQUEEEEE

[Saturday
February 23 2008
@ 9:39 pm
]
 "i dont want you to feel about about yourself"
mmmyeah. i can tell, youre so concerned about me.



i just dont understand
how after everything you said
you can just walk away
without looking back
without so much as a second thought
every word you ever said
was a lie
was a waste of time.








im in a mood tonight.
i love and miss miss misssssss CASEY PILLL
LIKE FOR REALLY FREAKING REAL.

[Tuesday
January 29 2008
@ 8:17 pm
]
OOH RAH

[Wednesday
October 24 2007
@ 9:26 pm
]

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

 i feel so lost.
so empty.
broken.
hazy.

im just tired.


i go from being okay to breaking down in a split second
for no reason
like today jp was teasing me all day about slacking off
and i was laughing along with him
it was funny
and then he did it one more time
and i just started crying

[Monday
October 8 2007
@ 9:19 pm
]

i miss you.

yesterday was so nice.
just being with you.
i wish you would understand that
i just want to hold you.




you are the best.

[Friday
August 31 2007
@ 3:36 pm
]
i love kasi forever and a day
like. seriously.

you should be dead to me. [Wednesday
August 22 2007
@ 7:44 pm
]
i saw a ghost today.
im not really sure if it was him.
but it punched me in the stomach like it was.

just when im starting to forget about you
just when someone new starts to be apart of my life..


hes a good kid
i dont want to hurt him
like i hurt you
i dont want him to hurt me
like you hurt me

so please.
just, please.

i want to tell you to stay out of my life
to stay out of my thoughts
to stay out of my dreams
but i dont.

[Friday
May 4 2007
@ 9:45 pm
]
uhm. i think i broke my foot.
but if i say that enough
maybe i will jinx it
and it will be good tomorrow.

im not digging going to urgent care right now though.

[Friday
April 27 2007
@ 3:49 pm
]
ill admit it.
im scared.

[Thursday
April 26 2007
@ 4:07 pm
]
im really pissy right now.
and i dont know why/
no i really do but thats okay.
be a jerk, i dont care.



anddd i keep texting kasi cause i keep forgetting she lefted her phone elsewhere. eek.

[Sunday
April 22 2007
@ 4:35 pm
]
ive got issues.
because i want to go to work.







ps im realllllyy reallyyyy bored out of my mind.

[Tuesday
April 10 2007
@ 10:30 pm
]
one minute you're up
the next you're down
and i'm stuck in between


don't act like you've done nothing wrong here, when i'm missing you simply because i'm tired, of feeling like dirt and of being treated like dirt. i drop everything for you constantly and just once id like you to do the same. just once id like to receive from you half as much as i give.

the ball is in your court now. im done making all of the effort. i'm done making any effort.

oh and by the way
you have no right
NONE WHAT SO EVER
to tell him he cant talk to me
you are the one that wanted us to hook up in the first place
just because you ruined our friendship
doesnt mean that me and him cant have something
thats up to us
so stay the hell out of it

[Friday
April 6 2007
@ 7:47 pm
]
im just tired.

[Friday
March 30 2007
@ 10:28 pm
]
[ mood | loved ]

happy birthday to me
im going to rock twenty. for serious.

[Monday
March 26 2007
@ 8:51 pm
]
[ mood | touched ]

so basically
it might be the end of an era
six years of friendship down the drain
because
IM DONE

basically in three whole years
summer has been here twice
and when she is in town to drop me off
she refuses to come see my apartment

completely ridiculous.
it seems small.
but its the final straw.
im through with being treated like dirt.


im tired of making all of the effort.
kayleen said it best "that is messed up. it wouldve taken two minutes. that is so rude! it just shows she is selfish and doesnt value her friends"

the ball is in her court now
because i am done
if she wants to save our friendship
its on her


in other news i love kasi
and its almost my birthday
and i have no idea how businesses make money when they are rude
i tried to buy a new computer since i took back my last one
and they wouldnt let me take it home that day
so i said fine i will be taking my business elsewhere and the MANAGER started yelling at me

and at kohls i stood next to the manager waiting for help
while she talked to an empoyee for a good five minutes
she looked at me THREE times


jp- im going outside to check [something or other] i might get beat, stabbed, shot, mugged [blah blah blah he is so over dramatic hahahahaha], if i dont come back in 5 minutes call another lod to close this place up
me- yeah no. if we dont have an lod im calling it good and im going home but hey good luck

p.s. i like a boyyyyyyy.

[Sunday
March 18 2007
@ 12:07 am
]
get buzzed
get crunk
get fawked uppp


today i worked
and worked
and my body hurts

tomorrow im taking DEVON<333
to chuck eeee cheese.
where a kid can be a kid.

this is for kasi and not you.

being a girl sucks for five days a month.
worse when you ask for ibuprofen and that begins a discussion infront of boys about menstruating.

dirty little secret; [Sunday
December 31 2006
@ 9:07 pm
]
i'm going to marry a navy SEAL.

[Friday
June 30 2006
@ 9:48 pm
]
i got another tattoo today.
its sexy.



im pretty bummed out.

[Saturday
April 29 2006
@ 1:34 am
]
kasi is the bomb [dot] com and shouldnt be depressed because duh everyone loves kasi and if they dont they are stoopid and should be shot in the face

[Saturday
April 29 2006
@ 1:20 am
]
i cant deal with my dad. i cant deal with my brother. they are both jerks. long story.

lindsey came home for a week. i got a tattoo today.
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yes. it hurt.
yes. im getting more.
wee.

lots of time with angelica, edie and nicole. and even jessica g.

gina times tomorrow! yay. and im going stay with her in ashland for like a day lol.
and summer is major prego. aaaaaaaaand i donno.

i cant wait for my next tattoo.
lindseys is SO cute. it says made in germany cause yanno she was born there.

targets getting ghetto, but i hope it gets better soon.
bleh.
basically i do better work than one of the team leads. well, almost everyone does. yet she bitches about all our work, when she leaves with a full z rack of abandons and two full carts of abandons and crappy racks. but you know, i leave no abandons and good racks. so kiss my jewish butt, eh.

peace, love. all that.
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and those are freckles, not part of the tat.

[Friday
February 24 2006
@ 6:41 pm
]
whatever it is, you can get it on ebay.

would you buy steak on ebay?

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